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Monday, August 30, 2010

He must Increase and I must decrease

An answered prayer!!! Julie and I have been trying to get pregnant for over 2 years now. After a long conversation with our fertility doctor, we have discovered that we are not able to have children. What I would have expected to be a huge burden and a devastating blow has turned out to be a warm blanket for our soul! We have felt for quite some time now that we would be adopting but wasn't sure on God's timing. Well God's time is NOW!!!

I would be lying if I said this was what I had planned for years. It's really not at all what I had planned. I wanted the American dream. I wanted the 2.3 kids and the golden retriever and live in a house on some acreage and grow old with my wife. I planned for Julie and I to have our own children one being a son who would be a basketball star and have a sub 2 minute FRAN! A daughter who looked just like my beautiful wife and would also play basketball on the D1 level and would want nothing to do with boys until she was 30. But that was MY plan clearly not God's.

I would confess that many times in my life I pursue "my plans". Sometimes I forget that the Man upstairs who built this whole thing, who created everything by himself and will shut her down when he chooses can probably handle the plans for my life! "He must increase and I must decrease"

So we're adopting!!! Clearly the first thing you do when you are adopting is... Start a blog! I am not a blogger and in fact this very blog will be filled with loads of punctuation errors, misspelled and made up words. Really we are starting this blog primarily for 2 reasons the first being we want to make sure we have record of this journey God has put us on and the second is we want to share this blessing with all of you.

Why international? Why Uganda? Why not DHS? Simply put God has laid Uganda on our hearts. I sure don't think that this is for everybody. I don't think it is some "Heroic" thing to adopt internationally. Frankly there our kids all over the world including here that need parents that will love them! It's just what we feel God has for us.

I do ask for your prayers, that through this process God would give us discernment. We want what He wants not what we want! "He must increase and I must decrease"

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